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"So let's cause a scene, clap our hands and stomp our feet or something."
seriously. we need something exciting to happen! i haven't posted here in quite awhile, i'm sure my last post was as self-loathing as i remember it but i'm allowing myself that. i'm allowing myself days where i feel fed up and i'm awful to people without meaning to be. it doesn't take much to annoy me recently but it's nobodys fault, it's just me. sorry. i don't mean to be like this but i'm still going through something that's going to take awhile to get over and sometimes i think people forget that. yes, i am well. no, i am not better. it's complicated, but basically i won't be better for a LONG time. i can't put a time bracket on it because we still don't know if the medication is working because i had to come off it and go back on it and bahh, i don't know. i'm just bored of being ill & not even being able to remember feeling "normal". THIS is why i get in to hese type of moods. i have time to think about my situation and begin to feel sorry for myself, i try not to though but sometimes it just happens. people moan about trivial little things all the time i think i can allow myself to moan about this.
i recently got my room offer from university. room 1, flat 31, arcade halls, holloway road, london. terribly exciting, although they want a £400 pre-paid deposit by next thursday which me & my mum have skirted but not fully discussed so i'm really not sure what's happening with that! i imagine she realises she HAS to pay it but i can't ask her about it, i feel awful, we don't have the money and i know we don't but what other way is there? i NEED to pay it otherwise i have no accommodation ie, no university. i can't wait to get to London. simple things like shopping for myself get me so excited! i can't wait to do my first offical shop. in the morrisons across the road from my halls :)! 8p noodles and 98p milkshake. i will live in luxury aha!
i have 2 exams left to do. english language. the important ones :'( ! but then i'm done. done with college forever and the summer really does begin. i DESPERATELY need a job, anywhere! i just need ££ fastttt. i have so many summer plans that need fuelling. i can't wait.
glassjaw/London, joes birthday, scotts birthday, LAB shows, ultimate alliance tour, ginas birthday, pop and load shows x 3! leeds festival, my birthday, loras birthday, lucys birthday, marbella, james birthday and then university! amazing summerrrrrrr ♥
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